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我已不能回头..
天..
它可愿意帮我..
你在何处漂流..
你在和谁厮守..
我的天涯和梦要你挽救

我已不能回头..
天..
你要伤我多久..
多麽愚蠢是我..
多麽爱你是我..
才会守着不走..
你给的寂寞

Mr Happy

Just back from work today at Ubin. It was real fun, considering how much i love kids, i had alot of connection with them today. I brought them cycling at Ubin together with Kian and Chewy before ending the day by teaching them some survivor skills (which is actually just how to cook instant noodles with a mess tin). They are a really noisy bunch of kids and i love their innocence when they tell me stuff about their life. By the end of the day they are so in love with me and kept on following me. They call me Mr Happy. :) ahhhh i am gonna have at least TWO children next time!!

Ah Gong

Today is my ah gong's death anniversary. I don't remember when did he died, i only remember the day when my mum received a letter from China and she started crying. I was too young to apprehend her feelings then. I don't remember him much as he left when i was still a toddler. My mum will always tell me that he carried me before when i was just born into this world. Yup, my ah gong have another family in china. He is the typical immigrant to Singapore in the early 1930s, coming here to find a better life. He's a carpenter and he used to make my toys according to my mum. My grandma is his second wife. I never heard any stories of their love story before. All i heard from my mum is, he returned to China to his family and got cheated of his money by his friends over there. Even though he left us, my grandma still loves him the same. Every year she will still prepare lots of stuff (folding bags and bags of paper ingots) to burn for him. She will also prepare his favourite food as offerings to him. And we are actually on pretty good terms with the other family in China too - visited each other and calling each other without fail every chinese new year. Sometimes i hate my ah gong for leaving us back here, leaving my grandma to grow old herself.. But he have his responsibilities as well back in China..so i guess that was the hardest decision he have to make in his life. Look out for ah ma in heaven ah gong, and us, as well. :))

Stress

The stress is really building up for me. I feel tired like all the time which i do not know why. Even tho i have enough sleep, i'd still find myself feeling lethargic and almost like a hangover the next day. The pimples are starting to grow too..sigh. I sat for my strategy paper today. DISASTER. I blanked out yet again and i feel really helpless as how as i try, i couldn't write anything. My poor command of english literature is going to be my downfall. I couldn't even express myself well enough to smoke my way through the paper. I studied the most for this and this is supposed to be my most confident paper for the mocks. Now..i am so demoralised..i am going down down down down down.....:(

Thoughts…

Typing this whilst my study break in the national library. A thought flashed through my mind while listening to this old school song "I wanna love you forever' by Jessica Simpson. I realized that songs about forever love only exists in the past. Another example will be "Forever" by Damage. Have times changed? I believe so. I now firmly believe that there will never be forever love, at some point in your life, even tho u might be married to the love of your life, you will somehow magically fall for another person along the way. There's no such thing as one lover forever. Only your conscience and maybe your up-bringing will help cancel out those thoughts. I always thought Jack Neo have the look of a loving husband and father and always produces movies that tells us of the social-ills in this society. Even him is now embroiled in a affair scandal. What is the world turning into man?? sigh... With money conjures up lust when it comes to men.

Patrick™ is going to be LEGEN-waitforit-DARY!

I got myself a new english name - Patrick. I should have been patrick since i was in primary school. The name's given by my dad but i didn't like it then, i prefer my aww-so-nice chinese name. But now i feel its time, to have a english name so that people can recognise me more when i go out working. Friends please continue calling my soo hann. Patrick is for people who are not close to me yet. :)

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

You can fail as much times as you want, but all you need is to succeed once. :)

Chinese New Year!

Haven't posted anything much for the past two weeks as i wanted to dedicate one whole post to the chinese new year. I am pretty glad that this year's chinese new year day one falls on valentines day so i will not have to suffer the feeling of watching lovey dovey couples on the street. In fact, i did not even realised that its valentines day on the day itself because the atmosphere was overrun by the chinese new year spirit. We had a little different reunion dinner this year. Every year it used to be teppanyaki + steamboat but this year we had only steamboat with takeout from the Mouth Kitchen. It was quite a spread and mummy made a healthy and yummy yu sheng for us to kickstart the new lunar new year.

Family portrait on day one.

From day minus one till day five, i have been gambling almost every night (most nights till 5am in the morning). I became so sick of gambling by the next week and the only reason why i did not stop is because i have been winning..unexpectedly. In total i have won near $170 in the two weeks of gambling. On day six, we were invited to a company gathering by josh. It was fine dining at his secondary school's friend's studio. The food was impeccable. Great food with good wine. We were invited to learn how to cook by his friend Mervyn but most were more interested in gambling instead. I was eager to learn something so i can whip up something nice in future, thus i became Mervyn's temporary assistant that day with shuying. :)) I learnt how to make chawamushi and black sesame pudding. Some pictures of the food we had :))






Went down to Echo music the following monday with my band members yiffy and yizzie to pay our lesson fees. Both of them collected their new acoustic guitar on the day itself except me. I wanted to avoid the trouble of bringing it home and back for the first lesson. I picked a reddish wood colour for my guitar. I was pretty excited and am looking forward to it. ahhh always good to have something to look forward to after the exams. I am going to make a video of myself playing with it in future ;p

Its yuan xiao jie today. The end of the chinese new year celebrations. We had a yu sheng to mark the start of the celebrations. Of course we must have another one to end it as well. Mummy made a super healthy and unusual yu sheng made out of vegetables, cucumbers, strawberries and some other ingredients which i cannot make out of. Its more like a salad, but it taste nice nonetheless. I am glad ah ma is ok now and is able to celebrate this occasion with us. I hope she will stay healthy from now on~ alright enough of posting for the day..its back to FULL TIME studying from tomorrow on wards!! i have been guilty of not studying at all for the past two weeks. Its time for hell month to begin...i am soooo not looking forward to it...