sigh...stupid ICT. Ever since ICT started its been bad luck bad luck bad luck.. my morale is damn low...zzz firstly, on the 2nd day i had a fever..secondly, i got posted to a branch which is full of politics and super high on individualism..Its a culture shock for me because the mortar platoon i was in had a high collectivism attitude..Its very saddening that i will be in this shithole for the next eight years. Being newly posted there, i don't really know whats my role in my appointment and i really hate it that i have to go outfield to do NOTHING. I rather be digging shellscrapes with my mortar platoon.. Being obstracized is a sad thing. Never knew this would happen to me..bad karma. Period.
The bad luck doesn't end there. Next up i played mahjong and experienced my first time losing all my chips :( The previous day i overslept and have to take cab to work.. then the biggest stunner came. I made a wrong decision to take bus to office. It was a 1.5 hours bus ride in a super slow and hot SBS bus, and when i reach there..the committee members are gone. Nobody informed me, even when i asked them for updates the previous day. fk. I hate being taken for granted. Worse is by people whom i treat as good friends. Soo Hann..can you stop being so naive? I used to believe in treating people with sincerity and giving with no intentions of getting any returns. Be so nice for what? Just to be taken advantage of and be taken for granted. As i learnt in army, this is a dog eat dog world. The force is weak in me, i am moving towards the dark side. Good friends a few can le..i am so lucky to have a few..friends who will lend me money unconditionally when in need. Friends who will still send me home in the middle of the night even when they are already at home. Friends who will come all the way to my home to fix my door.
I feel bad for showing my frustrations...hope this bad luck will be over soon. I'll head down to Si Ma Lu Guanyin temple this thursday! God bless me :)
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